This year was my fourth on WordPress, and while I once again beat my previous years total (not by much) I find myself feeling worse about this blog than ever. What is annoying me even more is that it is all my fault.
I have had a bad feeling about this site all year, and it was clear to see in my stats. I started well, but soon got sidetracked by work. Bla-bla-bla, I’ve beat that over-worked drum a lot this year, and am over it now. Mainly because hard work is in my character. Whether it is office work, writing or working out, I do it to excess and push myself to my breaking point. It is who I am. It is my dance and I am cursed to tango with it until the earth has turned my bones to dust.
I pulled it around in the last two months, but the reason for it has only added to my own doubts or rather my own unhappiness at the way I have run this blog.
I wrote 209 blog posts, but a lot of those were reblogs, and more than a few movie reviews. So they don’t really count. Not in my mind anyway, because I’m not running a review blog. Although I will reblog good reviews when I see them. Mainly from Written in Blood, a site I turn to regularly for my movie ideas.
In actuality the number of posts I wrote was probably about half of the above figure, and while that is still roughly once every three days, it was not good enough.
More often than not the posts were rambling lots of nonsense, written not because I had something to say, but because I felt as if it was my duty to get a post up that day. It made me feel better for neglecting the site, at that moment in time, but now, in hindsight, I firmly believe it did me more harm than good.
This is confirmed in my mind when I look at some of the other stats in my year review.
All of the posts I made, reblogs included, I only received 130 comments, and bearing in mind this includes several long conversations in comment form, and all of the reblogs I have had. For one of my commenters, this was pretty much every one of his interactions. Out of 130 comments, I guess it was more like 100 actual comments. This means one comment every two posts. For a site that is supposed to be there to help me build my writing platform this is just not even close to being good enough.
Couple this with the fact that out of my Top 5 viewed posts, none of them were written this year, and only one was written in 2013. This too is alarming. My most popular post was a cultural piece about Christmas celebrations in the Netherlands, and had nothing to do with horror or writing. The post itself was not even typed, but copied. It was an article I had written and sold to a magazine two years before.
This will change in 2015. Plans are afoot. I want to really make something out of this blog in the coming year. I hope you will all join me for the ride.