It has been a long time since I wrote something for this blog…
In the past 12 months, I have started too many posts with that same sentence.
It is not through any lack of enjoyment that these circumstances come to pass, but simply because life is busy as fuck, and when it comes down to it, this blog is the one thing I can always cut from my schedule.
I never set the world on fire with my posts, and growth has stalled since mid 2013 anyway.
Yet, for all of my neglect, I cannot bring myself to actually say goodbye to this place. I know that as a writer, I need an outlet. I need a place to build this mythical fucking platform.
To some people the notion of branding comes easily. They can put themselves out there in a way that creates something unique. I can’t do that. I am not afraid of going out there, and making a fool of myself, but when I try, it doesn’t seem genuine.
So fuck branding. I’m just going to stick to writing, and chatting with people, and take it from there. My brand might just be that I am fucking middle of the road ordinary.
I have 5 kids, a busy and overly stressful day job and books to write. Thinking about trying to find a way to present myself to others in a way that makes them want to buy my books just makes me laugh. I’m a moderately overweight thirty something man, I don’t sleep enough, drink enough (water or alcohol), I have a problem with authority and swear like a motherfucker.
So yeah, I am done with branding. I’m just going to be me, an average joe who says fuck too much, and if people have a problem with it, well that’s just fine.
I’m big enough (in all dimensions) and ugly enough to not care, and to know my life will probably not ever go the way I want. The chance of me being a full time writer with a family as large as mine is slim, and even slimmer if I waste my time trying to create some false image of myself when I could actually be doing some writing.
My productivity in the last quarter of the year has been better than ever, and you know what, my books are selling. They are selling they are being reviewed, both good and bad, and I couldn’t be happier.
I’m not sure where this post is going, or what I’m even truly trying to say. Another thing that dragged me down about this blog. Trying so hard to always toe the line, to not piss people off or say something that someone may find offensive.
I’m calling bullshit on all that. My point is going to be this for 2016.
I no longer give a flying monkey fuck what others think. I’m going to be me, and that’s all I care about.
I’m not a racist, I’m not a bigot, or any of those other wonderfully PC -its words, I’m just Alex, a human fucking being.
2015 was a great year, there were highs and lows. I’m still broke as fuck, and unsure how we will pay the bills this month, but hey, I’m alive, healthy and have my family. I’ll get through this the same way I have gotten through every month in my adult life. By the skin of my teeth, but I’m still standing, still smiling, and still giving the finger to the system!
I will be back in 2016, but it will all be on my own damned terms.
5 thoughts on “Where Do We Go From Here?”
You do say ‘fuck’ way too fucking much. You need to clean up your fucking language you bloody fucker! 😀
I know, I really need to fucking watch what I say, but fuck man, I just forget. 🙂
-giggles- Tsk, tsk Alex, there are old ladies present. 😉
But in amongst all those expletives you said some stuff that made me cheer – be. your. self!
Of all the advice I read 4 years ago when I started out, only two bits have stayed with me – write a blog and make genuine connections with /people/, the rest will follow, or not as the case may be. I love my blog and I’ve discovered more friends than I ever thought possible. I’ve developed a brand, of sorts and maybe one day I’ll even start to make some money. In the meantime I am having fun…and you should too. 😀
Happy New Year in advance.
Go for it, man. Nothing wrong with being yourself no matter what others say or think. If they don’t like it, sucks to be them. 🙂
Hey Alex. Way to go. You must be doing something right if your books are selling well. Don’t worry about branding then – it often will just take care of itself with whatever you do.
And as for saying what you want and all that — I do the same, although my take on it is different than yours as when people say “Aren’t you afraid you’ll get into trouble?” I reply “I’m too old to care.” Guess you can’t use that one at least. Maybe “I’m too busy to care?”
Have a good 2016 and doing it your way.